it’s difficult to believe in certain things and then try to convince yourself otherwise
to throw away who you are and then display it differently on the outside

it’s difficult to harden your heart and never again want for this or that
knowing full well it can’t remain that way and will eventually soften back

it’s difficult to hope and want for chances that you feel will never happen
dreams and desires diminish and therefore all confidence is abandoned

it’s difficult to pretend that you no longer care
when deep down you do and yet have so much more to share

it’s difficult to change who you are when you know whom you should be
but you think society sees you differently and therefore keeps you from being free

it’s difficult not to attempt to quit or give in on those things that you want
to go on as if they didn’t matter and act all nonchalant

it’s difficult to let go because it proves you deeply believe in those things
it shows that you are uniquely different and a very special human being


Copyright © 2012 Andrew Hildreth


About HandHeldWriter

Fiction writer. Vinyl collector. Coffee drinker. Book reader. Music lover. Neat freak. Bookworm. Introvert. Thinker. Poet. ISTJ. View all posts by HandHeldWriter

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